As I sit here currently one day shy of 39 weeks pregnant I have all the worries of being a first time mom. I have a MILLION questions running through my head between labor and delivery and being a mom. When will labor start? How will labor start? Will I know the right time to leave for the hospital? Will I survive the contractions and delivery? What Dr will deliver you? Will you be a boy or girl? Will you be healthy? Will I be healthy? What will recovery be like? What will my mood be like? How will life be different? Will I be a good mom? Will I know what to do? Do I have everything I need? The questions go on and on but the scariest part is all these questions will be answered in just a matter of days. I am beyond excited to be your mom but I am also terrified. My promise to you is I will do my best and I will love you unconditionally, I will learn as you learn and you will always have a support system that loves you.
As each day goes by waiting for your arrival it is becoming more and more real that I will be holding you in my arms and not in my belly. You are safe in my belly and all I want to do is keep you safe when you enter this world. It is a beautiful world with wonderful opportunities I can’t wait for you to experience but it is also a scary world that I want to protect you from. Just know I will do everything I can to make sure you are happy, safe and loved. You will have a roof over your head, clothes on your back and food on the table.
I love you so much already, more than you will every know. You will always be my baby, my first born and I can’t wait to meet you.